I have a cousin who is like my sister because she grew up with us and I can't remember a time when she wasn't with us but from what my Mom said she was brought into the family before I was born.
This was written awhile back. I don't even remember why I started it. Oh yeag, part of the reason was JL's stalking that brought it on and all the crap he's written. Most of it is just crap, nonsense that makes no sense and doesn't relate to me although he's tried really hard to make it look that way. Some of it real bad but much of it now is just stupid and silly so I don't mind it as much. As long as he leaves me alone.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Driven Into Hiding
I have to say I've been pretty much driven into hiding by JL. He's harassed me, stalked me and threatened me and continues to repeatedly threaten me through email and there's nothing I can do about it. Law enforcement is powerless to do anything. They say they can't prove he's doing it which is speak for not wanting to find out he's really behind it. The other part is not wanting to do their job and not being educated in the matter of stalking and not knowing just how dangerous it really can be. For anyone never going through it they don't know how bad it can be or truly understand it. And I'm glad there are many women out there who don't understand it's impact.
He says in his blog he knows where I live but I don't believe that to be the case. He's just making that up at least I hope he is. I've never seen him drive by and I hope I never do. I think he's lying to scare me into thinking he knows where I live when in fact he has no idea.
Either way, it's scary.
He says in his blog he knows where I live but I don't believe that to be the case. He's just making that up at least I hope he is. I've never seen him drive by and I hope I never do. I think he's lying to scare me into thinking he knows where I live when in fact he has no idea.
Either way, it's scary.
Usenet
Google groups is one of his favorite places to harass me. I don't post on usenet but he uses it all the time to make slanderous, filthy posts about me. He says hateful, mean things about me, my Mother and just about anyone else he can locate close to me. He harasses JJ, my ex on a fairly regular basis as well sometimes even sending his threats to JJ through email and telling JJ to send them to me which JJ usually does only for law enforcement purposes.
That hasn't helped much, law enforcement I mean, I take what I have to them and they ignore it especially if he isn't i nthe same state as me. I guess they have a point, he probably wouldn't drive here just to do me in at least I hope not.
His latest thing is a blog. He started a blog about me just so he could slander and malign me and try to make me look bad. It doesn't hurt me so I'm not sure what his purpose is other than to feed his own sick, twisted ego.
He had the nerve to email me the posts he made on his blog. Of course he uses a false name understandably. Probably afraid he might get into some kind of trouble. Unfortunately, I doubt he would. The judge said when the restraining order went into effect that any blogs, posts, etc had to be proven and I can't per se prove he's doing it other than the emails he sending which he would deny as well so I'm pretty much screwed when it comes to his harassment.
That hasn't helped much, law enforcement I mean, I take what I have to them and they ignore it especially if he isn't i nthe same state as me. I guess they have a point, he probably wouldn't drive here just to do me in at least I hope not.
His latest thing is a blog. He started a blog about me just so he could slander and malign me and try to make me look bad. It doesn't hurt me so I'm not sure what his purpose is other than to feed his own sick, twisted ego.
He had the nerve to email me the posts he made on his blog. Of course he uses a false name understandably. Probably afraid he might get into some kind of trouble. Unfortunately, I doubt he would. The judge said when the restraining order went into effect that any blogs, posts, etc had to be proven and I can't per se prove he's doing it other than the emails he sending which he would deny as well so I'm pretty much screwed when it comes to his harassment.
Threats
I'm referring to JL's threats. He's sent me numerous threats through email, he's called me and made threats. Recently, I found where he has created a blog just for the purpose of harassing and stalking me further. It's amazing what lengths people will go to harass and annoy someone.
I most definitely fear what he could do if he found me. He's threatened me every time I refuse to answer one of his terrible emails. He'll say stuff like he still loves me then turn around in the next breath and threaten harm to me if I don't answer his emails which I never do well at least almost never. There are times when he pushes my buttons to the point where I react which I know is something I shouldn't do but I do it anyway sometimes. I try to keep my cool and not let anything he says bother me no matter how scared or angry I am.
This only serves to anger him more however but still I stay strong and try not to let it bother me although many times it does even when I don't show it not even to my family.
I most definitely fear what he could do if he found me. He's threatened me every time I refuse to answer one of his terrible emails. He'll say stuff like he still loves me then turn around in the next breath and threaten harm to me if I don't answer his emails which I never do well at least almost never. There are times when he pushes my buttons to the point where I react which I know is something I shouldn't do but I do it anyway sometimes. I try to keep my cool and not let anything he says bother me no matter how scared or angry I am.
This only serves to anger him more however but still I stay strong and try not to let it bother me although many times it does even when I don't show it not even to my family.
Friday, January 1, 2010
Leaving
This was without a doubt one of the best things I did. Leaving Florida and NC was good for me. It got me away from this psycho.
When I left(my ex and I broken up now and I'm with someone new) I went to Sault Ste Marie, Michigan where my aunt lives. She didn't have enough room for myself and my daughter who was very sick(at the time it was also an opportunity to get her treatment and medical care in Canada where she was born) so my aunt gave me her RV to live in. I couldn't afford a campground, I really couldn't afford much of anything with all my daughters mounting medical bills so I parked the RV in truck stops, rest areas, for a long time I parked it in a walmart parking lot which worked out for awhile but I knew that couldn't last forever, I knew the management would eventually expect me to move so when I had some time off from work I would drive around looking for someplace new to park it and that's when it dawned on me that an abandoned house might just be the ticket. Although I only rolled the idea around half heartedly. I was really scared to move into a place I knew nothing about and could end up getting hurt if the owners were real crazies.
It was also around this time I met my current husband. Unfortunately, he wasn't in the best of circumstances either. For the longest time he didn't tell me he was living in an abandoned garage but eventually he showed me where he lived. I felt for him. My situation was bad. Before I got to my aunts I spent several weeks living in my car. But his situation was worse. I could always go to the safety of my car if things got to overwhelming and they often did.
The RV had a bed my daughter and I could sleep in if nothing else. Since we had no water I would go to gas stations and get water from those hoses on the outside(I'm not sure what they are for) but they helped me out.
The day came when my husband(then boyfriend Joe) couldn't stay at the garage anymore. The RV was big enough for all three of us and had a nice couch so he moved in and that is what started our life together. What started out as an arrangement started a new beginning even if circumstances were bad. By the time he moved in I think we were both already in love.
When I left(my ex and I broken up now and I'm with someone new) I went to Sault Ste Marie, Michigan where my aunt lives. She didn't have enough room for myself and my daughter who was very sick(at the time it was also an opportunity to get her treatment and medical care in Canada where she was born) so my aunt gave me her RV to live in. I couldn't afford a campground, I really couldn't afford much of anything with all my daughters mounting medical bills so I parked the RV in truck stops, rest areas, for a long time I parked it in a walmart parking lot which worked out for awhile but I knew that couldn't last forever, I knew the management would eventually expect me to move so when I had some time off from work I would drive around looking for someplace new to park it and that's when it dawned on me that an abandoned house might just be the ticket. Although I only rolled the idea around half heartedly. I was really scared to move into a place I knew nothing about and could end up getting hurt if the owners were real crazies.
It was also around this time I met my current husband. Unfortunately, he wasn't in the best of circumstances either. For the longest time he didn't tell me he was living in an abandoned garage but eventually he showed me where he lived. I felt for him. My situation was bad. Before I got to my aunts I spent several weeks living in my car. But his situation was worse. I could always go to the safety of my car if things got to overwhelming and they often did.
The RV had a bed my daughter and I could sleep in if nothing else. Since we had no water I would go to gas stations and get water from those hoses on the outside(I'm not sure what they are for) but they helped me out.
The day came when my husband(then boyfriend Joe) couldn't stay at the garage anymore. The RV was big enough for all three of us and had a nice couch so he moved in and that is what started our life together. What started out as an arrangement started a new beginning even if circumstances were bad. By the time he moved in I think we were both already in love.
Reasons
Another reason I ended up moving and essentially going into hiding is because of a stalker I've been dealing with for a long time now. I got a restraining order against him and that stopped him for awhile but when I was back in NC(I lived there awhile with my ex, he has family there and worked there) I saw my ex boyfriend, I'll just call him JL. When the restraining order went into effect the first time it stipulated that neither one of us could post about each other online on message boards or blogs. JL started a blog about me, writing it as if he were me then turned around and claimed I was writing it to malign and slander him because he was such a good upstanding christian man which was not true, that was just facade. He then went on to send harassing and threatening emails to the pastor of our church writing them as if he were me. He got me thrown out of the church, he got all his friends and my friends to turn against me, he managed to get them to harass me as well, so much so they would drive by my house, sit around my house and watch me at all hours of the day and night. He or one of his friends would follow me, find out the places I frequented such as cafes and coffee shops and would talk to the employees there so they would spy on me for him. He would tell them I was harassing and stalking him when it was the other way around.
He would call me, skype me mostly so I could never trace it, sometimes as many as a dozen times a day. When I got my number changed he somehow got it again, maybe my friends, maybe someone else.
I managed to move but he found out where I lived and started harassing me again.
Eventually my ex and I moved to Florida. That didn't stop the harassment, he would still call both of us. When we'd get our numbers changed he get them again and start it all over again.
Finally I got the opportunity to leave both Florida and NC behind hopefully for good.
He would call me, skype me mostly so I could never trace it, sometimes as many as a dozen times a day. When I got my number changed he somehow got it again, maybe my friends, maybe someone else.
I managed to move but he found out where I lived and started harassing me again.
Eventually my ex and I moved to Florida. That didn't stop the harassment, he would still call both of us. When we'd get our numbers changed he get them again and start it all over again.
Finally I got the opportunity to leave both Florida and NC behind hopefully for good.
Welcome
What started as a mild hobby turned into something much more. I love to travel and explore different places. In the past few years I've been to many different areas of the United States and ahve loved every bit of it. Due to some financial difficulty I had to basically give up my travel hobby. I went from being on top of the world to underneath it in a matter of only a few months.
I don't let my new living arrangements get me down. What I mean by that is I went from living normally like other people to living in an abandoned house without running water or plumbing(not functional plumbing anyway).
I've moved around quite a bit due to this unfortunate way of life. Eventually, I did get an RV from my aunt who kindly let me use it as they(she and her husband no longer enjoy it's use and it was just sitting there collecting dust). That's considerably better, nicer I mean. But there was still the problem of power and water as I(rather we, my husband and I) had no money to stay in a campground. That may sound unimaginable to most but it's the truth. The truth is never easy to understand or bear.
We live in beautiful St. Ignace, Michigan. We were lucky enough to find a halfway decent house that was abandoned without water but we were able to get power so we took moved into it. I know the day could come when the real owners show up and tell us to leave but until that day comes we plan on staying.
I don't let my new living arrangements get me down. What I mean by that is I went from living normally like other people to living in an abandoned house without running water or plumbing(not functional plumbing anyway).
I've moved around quite a bit due to this unfortunate way of life. Eventually, I did get an RV from my aunt who kindly let me use it as they(she and her husband no longer enjoy it's use and it was just sitting there collecting dust). That's considerably better, nicer I mean. But there was still the problem of power and water as I(rather we, my husband and I) had no money to stay in a campground. That may sound unimaginable to most but it's the truth. The truth is never easy to understand or bear.
We live in beautiful St. Ignace, Michigan. We were lucky enough to find a halfway decent house that was abandoned without water but we were able to get power so we took moved into it. I know the day could come when the real owners show up and tell us to leave but until that day comes we plan on staying.
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